I pity the fool

I've been sitting on this rant for a while now, writing and rewriting it in my head, wondering if I should brave posting it in fear of upsetting people. Then I realised that by thinking that, I was doing exactly the same thing I was upset about in the first place!

I'm trying to work out when I started letting the actions and thoughts of others get to me so damn much.

When did I start censoring myself, my thoughts and my feelings, so as to not cause myself to be alienated? When the fuck did I start bending and stretching myself around others so much that I don't even remember who I really am anymore?

You have a list of things you think are wrong with me, or that you don't like? That's sweet; I have my own list, and I'm pretty sure it could swallow yours whole.

You want to judge others, talk about them behind their back, break trust and use people?
Excellent, please feel free to teach your children those ways, and let me know how well they go in life.

If you think it's ok to make others feel like less of a person, more fool you, I don't even waste my time pitying you.

I am a 30 year old woman; I am too old, too tired and too fucking good for immaturity, competitiveness, or selfishness. I shouldn't have to censor myself or go against my own nature, just because other people can't handle it. Welcome to the real world people, suck it up.

For the record, if you're reading this, and feel that pang of guilt in your chest, and wonder if it's about you, it probably is, and no one is to blame but you.

Oh, and, no, I won't fucking answer if you ask.

6 months no-poo

It has been 6 months since I stopped using commercial hair products, if you have no idea what I'm talking about, catch up here. 

I detoxed, hated it, kept with it, still hated it, pushed through, now LOVE it.

I ended up extending the natural based products to my body and face too, best choice ever!

Hit a hurdle with the original method as the weather warmed up. I started getting reactions to the Apple Cider Vinegar, it caused me to itch all over, constantly, it was fucking horrid. Took a while to realise what the issue was, and of course I then needed to find an alternative.

*cue endless research, in hindsight, I went fucking OCD, big time*

I decided on the Sukin Organics range. My local Priceline pharmacy stocks it, and the price was comparable, if not cheaper, than the "salon quality" products.

Ahhh, it's a beautiful collection!

I alternate between using the Sukin shampoo, and the shampoo bar I got from Cathedral Range, an Australian owned and operated family business, they make it all! The products are amazing, I can't speak highly enough about their products. (nope, still not sponsored by anyone!)

Cathedral Range, Shampoo Bar (Cedarwood), $4.95 and lasts forever.

I go on average, 10 days between washes. I can go longer, however this heat means I sweat, and it's gross. 

How's my hair now? 

Wonderful! 

(and, as you can see, my skin is looking so much better. PMS breakouts have reduced, and the pigmentation and scars are reducing. LOVE it)